Dear My Future Love 4

Annyeong...???
How are you?
Jjaljinessoyo?

hmmm it's have been long time..
since the last time i write something about you..

even today..
on Sunday, May 31st 2015..
i still not yet meet you...
i wish you have a happy and healthy life..
no matter what kind of you are...

i wish..
even you have a bad day..
because a random thing..
you can face it..
don't care you win it or not..
i just want you can pass it with smile instead..
if you lost it..
just let it go..
and try again next time..

don't you know...
at the end of May
i face struggle situation...

yeah..
i made a plan with my mom from long time ago..
we made up to have some bussiness together..
while my mom as the ppl will sell the things..
me.. will prepare about money
and find some good things to sell..
such as fashion...

in order to do that..
i'll submit kredit file to Bank..
while that i've to leave some important thing there..
it's called SK and Taspen...
as a government employee..

first everything same turn well..
i prepare the thing..
carry on my bag to copy it...

But in the other hand..
it doesn't simple as i dream...

at tomorrow day..
i can't find the thing in my bag...
i looked for whole the house..
but i still can't see it by my sight..

at first i still hang on there..
be positive thinking like what i've done usually..
i thought that things left at office when i came yesterday..
unfortunately..
when i ask to ppl thee..
they said didn't see it..

i come home...then..
and i kept search it till i tired..
still nothing.. TT_TT

at night i feel so much tired..
my whole body lost the energy instead...
still wishing for miracle..
there's gonna be someone come to find me..
and say they find my things...

but..
till the next day it's nothing...
i found myself so much struggle for this..
i can't go work...
even not going  to wash and not having meal..

my body so much weak...
all day long i just so blankly..
what must i do..
how i can say this happening to ppl..
esp my family...

how about my plan..
ahhh...
a lot of thing come to my senses..

i have gone through..
i lost my apetite.,.
i lost my mind..
my mood goes bad...
i don't even go out from my room...
but the sddest thing is..
i didn't cry any at the time....
i mean... i'm the stage of lot of pain by myself..
how careless i was.. it hurt my pride..
why i made my ownself to face the hard time...

and i even not talk about it to anyone...
i just..
i still wish..
it's all about my dream..
when i wake up in the morning..
everything will set up be like always..
just like before the things gone ...

someday..
there's a random quiz on fb
"What kind of ability that you ever wish, you have?"
at the time i wanna have ability to jumper..
which is i can transfer in to someplace easy..
just with a blink eyes and think about that place i want to go..
and.. voila just a second when i open my eyes..
i'll be there..
but now.. i want to change it..
i wanna have ability to find something missing...
i mean things, stuff..like that..
seems like this kind of ability will be really useful not only for me..
to a lot of ppl...

hah...
see...
how i dream so much..
even at the time like this i made it in my day..
day-dream...

while have a bad day i think..
woah..
how if when i got blankly because of messed thing
and i have some ppl or family
which is i have take care of..
will i gone triug this way..
than i realize..
that's why..
what's happen to ppl which is dating and then they break-up..
maybe one of the answer is they can't reconcile the situation when they have a hard time..

hmmm
it's can take easy if just one side have gone througt
but.. how if the hard time come up at the same way..
a bad day on office...
family problem..
like that..
when they got tired and can't think clearly..
then they will cursed each other..
each side wishing for more attention..
but they forget to reduce their ego center love at first..

then i decided..
if this situation come to us one day..
when we've already belong each other..
will you just give me a warm big hug..
instead throw warm word...
coz the first thing that i really want to do
after face a hard day is.. to be in your arm...
hug you thighly...

maybe it's not really solve the problem..
but..
i want recharge my energy with this kind of action..
will you do it for me...

after all the hard time
while we outside to work and other..
i hope we can ended of the day comeback
to our happy home

we have to do it..
in the future....
yes we have...

cz no matter what..
even i have a lot of bad habbit..
at least i want to be a good one for Us...
be good in a good way, of course..

promise me...
my future husband....
G'D Nite..
i wish June will be good to both of Us
#WithLove
your sweet June ^_^