HeartBreak Event

have you ever experience about heartbreak...
i think everyone have this kind of experience...
but every ppl have different way to solve this...

some will cry all night long..
some will going crazy...
some will speak bulshit about how they hate the ex..
some will going crawling..
and made she or himself beg to ex together...
or.. some.. will fine... maybe cz they are the one who cut the tie...

me..
when i fisrt experience this..
feel like there's a hole in my life..
i though my days gone winter 365 days more without him
the pitch black sky feel so cold like it will shatter


the night air is breezing through my finger cold

goodbye are always unbearably cold

When it’s time for the flowers to bloom
i keep asking and looking for..
after the last goodbye
still hard to find another heart

My Favorite Day Of The Week

There's seven day in a week...
From Sunday to Saturday....
everyone has their own fav day.. hasn't they?
during seven day.. people busy with working, studying, do daily activity and so on..


a lot of people like Sunday...
cz the day is off working and studying..

people can do another activity which they can't do on weekday..
then Monday is a day which lot of people not like it..
it supposed to be like that..
why..


yeah cz this day wake people up from heavenly sunday ^_^..
Isn't it true?
There is I Love Sunday.. and I Hate Monday...
but at this day..
there is new tribute for I Like Monday..
yeah.. good one...
there is people love Friday..
cz the day off work .. Saturday-Sunday is free..


How about me?...
anyway..
my fav Days is... Wednesday, Thursday and Friday...

for wednesday.. cz it's like alarm which tell "Okay, monday and tuesday is passed..now the rest is Joy."
haha..
i'm not hate monday..
but somehow it's just to hard to handle my lazyness to start work instead i need and love to earn money kekeke.



Thursday... well.. my Fav KDrama always coming at this morning...haha looks simple
but i'm happy anywaysssss..
Friday... it's the top of Joy on the week..
short time to work... so i can go around and chilling out with my fren...
do a lot of thhing such as watching movie, reading books, cooking, cleaning my room, salon day ^^
for Saturday and Sunday, i don't say i don't like it..
but when it's happening all this time i realize how short the 24 hours in the day..
it's the same, cz my work day from Monday to Saturday,



so Sunday just like...
hanging and chilling...
i always think like.. okey today is Sunday what else i can do today...
so there is a lot of plan come up..
then when i wake up..
ugh this Monday again without i can rest of my brain for time by...
yeah.. there is always busy sunday for me... hahaha..

but.. everyday just like that..
always the same..
So......

Asking This Heart

i didn't know it is love or just...
still can't figure out this feeling...
but why this heartaching instead
little...
but it's hurt sometime...

i let you go like a fool..
and now when i see you with someone else..
i feel sorry to myself...

can i have that kind of happiness
if the girl is me beside you...

i couldn't say it even once...
why i've being like this..

i can't stop thinking of you now..
why.. why..
i let you go like that...

you can't hear this..
so you don't know..

just like in the past time..
i'm the one who couldn't made a call
even if i want...
but waited for you call me first..
it somehow make me sadness..

is it i miss you, finally..

or just because the rainy days..
so i get gloomy...

waiting

do you remember...

the wind blow slowly,,,,
the girl standing under the tree...
she wear purple coat
her heads cover by beani
makes her cute image getting smaller

she just standing there
she seems nervous...
more than twice she looks at her watch

25 January...
at 07.45 pm...
he must be busy...
the girl talk to her self...

the winter season still cold..
it's can make ppl freeze sometime..

but the girl still waiting...

The Girl was On Sink..

When he said…

Ini adalah takdir…

When he broke your heart…

I just wanna screammmm..

Ya…

Why you blame to destiny…

Kenapa harus mengkambing hitamkan takdir…

Kenapa tidak mengakui saja kalau sudah tidak ingin bersama…

Kenapa harus berputar-putar mencari pembelaan…

Toh jika akhirnya tetap menyakitkan..

Dan di atas semua ke bulshit-an yang terjadi..

Aku masih mengenang kebahagiaan yang pernah hadir…

Apa aku punya dosa di masa lalu kepada orang lain..

Sehingga sakit itu orang lainnya yang menorehkan pada ku…

from the one who has love someone deeply....in the past

TENTANG TAKDIR ^^

Takdir bekerja dengan sangat magic…

Betapa hebatnya sebuah takdir bekerja meski manusia sudah mengupayakan berbagai cara jika itu bukan takdirnya… maka yang bisa di lakukan adalah menerima, melangkah maju dan membuat progress baru

Seperti cinta…

Sebuah hubungan yang tampak bisa berjalan dengan baik dan mudah, jika keduanya tidak ditakdirkan untuk bersama entah bagaimana jadinya, ada saja hal yang memisahkan mereka.

Tapi jika dua orang sudah bertakdir, yang satu diibaratkan berada di kutub utara, satunya lagi di kutub selatan, entah bagaimana caranya aka nada jalan yang memudahkan mereka bertemu, bahkan dari hal yang tidak di duga.

Just like me and  him…

 

Untuk ukuran orang normal biasa pada umumnya, kalo jalannya sudah kayak waktu itu, yakin deh pasti jalannya mulus.

Tapi ya githu, berhubung salah satunya adalah gw, cewek yg pemikirannya rumit, ini itu kesana kemari.. jadinya ya.. berlalu… instead of … maybe he has someone in his heart.. TT_TT #yasodahberbiegalau.

Beberapa tahun lalu, gw sedikit pengen teriak kepada seseorang yang berkata "Karena kita tidak berjodoh."

ketika dia memutuskan tali cinta...

rasanya tuh..

koq nyalahin takdir seeehhh..

tapi lewat kejadian akhir-akhir ini gw sadar..

yah takdir memang menggoreskan jalan masing-masing untuk semua orang.

 

So bersabarlah pada takdir yang telah digariskan..

Jika yang mudah saja menjadi rumit..

Pastinya suatu saat aka nada yang rumit menjadi mudah…

Bismillah..

Berdo’a dan berusaha..