May... Hard day

There isn't special thing at this month..
just ike usually...
today rain..
tomorrow hottest.. because the sun shine brightly
at the other day clowdy
the next rain and sunny come together...

But there's a day..
when i find myself struggling more than before...

from the beginning of May..
there's Bubu B'Day...

the next week my relative passed away...
a lot of working outside office..
going to someplace..
village...
by the land that's so hard...
....
there's wedding too..
that i can't attend..
because my working..
honestly i want go there..
but because i'm lil bit sick..
then i consumpt some medicine which is made me ended up slept easily..

a lot of to do...

but..
there's not yet much biggest thing ever of the month..
almost the end of may...
while i'm busy prepare for my mom and my plan...

one of important thing was dissapear...
my SK...
the 1st one, the latest one and my Taspen...
heoll..
i can remember how i menage the thing before it missing someplace...
...
ah... so angry to myself..
why so careless...
till i write this post i still not yet made a report missing stuff to police office..
i still wishing for miracle..
as like..
i can find the stuff in my house...
or there's gonna be someone with a good heart give it to me...
i wish..
even in my dream i still wish..
...
and now..
when i looking for my ID Card..
i can't find it everywhere that i think i leave it...
heoll...
how can i do this..
why so careless..
even somehow ppl will say..
"Musibah."
that's no one can guess this condition will come in their life...

i feel so bad for myself..
i mean..
i have a good plaaning to do..
but why is getting hard to make it happen..

feel like some ppl pick pocket my thing while i'm outside...
really can't handle it somehow..
even today i lost my appetite..
i just have meal once..
instant noodle...
the rest is snack and white water...

then my job desk get delay for time being that i don't know how long...
...............

i just..
why this year.. 2015..
every uneven month..
there gonna be messed thing happen..
heoll..
how can i handle this...
so tired....

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