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when gentle rains come
on sleepless night..
seoul lonely..
your memory embrace me..
time to time you cross my mind..

remind me about
one fine day with you..

your sweet smile..
your gentle smell..
all about you
when there's only me in your eyes..

kiss the missing pieces of us..
the time goes by..
and my tears fall down..

have you ever think about me...
just like iam now

you are the sweet summer dream ever..
a season with you..
will last forever in my memories..

i'm a girl
who standing by street lamp by the rain..
the one who missing you so much

Best Time

what's day today?
it's sunday..
common ppl love this day a lot..
but why my heart goes blankly..
for me..
the best time is when my family around..
esp Mom...
being with mom is always good time..
everytime around with her
we always do like..
there something to wash..
we keep said
"Mom, let me do this."
then mom said "No, let me do."
we keep said that line to other...
in the end..
mom do dish
and i wash the clothes..
haha...
cooked, cleaning house, go to market, watching tv, or just talking about thing..
i love do it with mom...
maybe..
i'm a two timer girl...
i can be a mom girl... at other time i'm being oppa fangirling..
that is my world now...
i just wait...
what next..
how if there is real oppa come... haha..
annyeong...
have a good weekend..

Visit Korea 2015, Prepare Time

Finally..
I WILL GO TO KOREA BY THIS FALL...
Hurayyyyyy
yippiiii

hhhhh..
take a deep breathe..
to much excited...
....
Setelah diskusi alot bersama Lia dari tahun ke tahun... haha..
yep
Korean trip ini sudah lama gw bidik..
tepatnya kapan gw mulai chit chat sama Lia juga sudah lupa..
awal tahun 2014 gw ajak dia .. egen... berangkat entah di Oktober atau December..
dgn alasan..
kalo ntargw menikah di 2015 yah susah perginya..
haha..
pede amat ..
yakin merit githu..
padahal yg bakal ngajak ke penghulu belum jelas..
yah namanya nasib siapa tau kan..
...
so skip skip..
karena uang juga masih kembang kempis..
..
padahal tahun kemarin gw gak kemana-mana,,,
gak ikut trip Thailand..
cancel Jawatimur trip...
demi nabung untuk Korea...
.....
terakhir ngetrip 2013 maret..
ke singapore...
langsung terkuras tabungan..
dan musti nabung 2 tahun lebih baru ngetrip lagi haha..
..
setelah searching berbagai tur.. dan masih bingung mau ikut yang mana..
gak pede pergi backpacker sendiri..
karena terganjal pengurusan visa...
daripada di tolak kan...
mending ikut yg pasti..
....
and one day..
Lia cerita kalo ada temannya Dwi yg mau ngetrip ke Korrea lagi...
so here we are..
join trip nya Dwi, dia yg ngurusin semua nya...
jadi kita tinggal bayar gitu....
transfer pertama buat tiket awal Maret kemarin..
tabungan gw langsung kemarau sampai mengering hahaha..
planningnya berangkat di October ntar..

dengan rute
Bjm-Jkt-KL-Seoul

nginap di KL dulu besoknya pagi baru ke Seoul...
oke lah...
sekarang yg jadi pikiran gw adalah...
ntar gw ke Bjm nya pake travel atau ikut jalur air..
duuuhh pergi sendiri bikin worry..
hahaha..
bukannya apa2..
gw kan pemabok beratzz my man...
pastinya bakalan teler kalo sendirian..
huu..
ini aja sudah keliyengan mikirnya..
parrraaaahhhh..
................
tapi ini berlaku trip Muara Teweh - Banjar Masin doank..
kalo udah di Bandara
magically gw sehat walafiat.. heu...
..............
mau nyoba trip air planningnya...
kali aja ada speed boat dari Buntok (BarSel) ke Bjm..
skalian mau Journey gitu.
tapi sampai sekarang belum adainfo yg akurat.
...............
so.. pending and keep calm.....
....................
lagi mikir mau beli travel bag..
koper...
yg bagasi ato 20 ya..
soalnya koper gw hilang pas ngetrip Konser MBlaq 2012 kemarin..
duuuhh..
pengeluaran lageee....
yo wes..
mari nyari uang yg halal dan banyak aja lah....
buat bekal nanti..
ciauww...

Korea I'm Coming.... This Fall

Hey hooo..
March 2015 already....
satu triwulan akan segera berlalu..
time fly so fast ya....
angin bertiup...
daun2 berjatuhan...
gak lama turun hujan... hee..


Do you have a dream?
Biggest Dream? Small dream? or just dream?
Me...
hmmmm
i have... a lot of dream.. haha
the biggest one is travelling around the world..
since i've graduated from academy i kept thinking how to earn a lot of money
but i still can travelling and life fun haha..
so cheesy right.. is'nt it...
then one day..


there's country name Korea, make me feel something..
yeah..
the thing is.. i don't know..
just..
i have go there.. someday..
when i was in junor high school i watched KDrama..
just like any other Drama...
Japan, Taiwan, Chineese.. dll..
like it..
but i never know that one day my heart goes far away about it..
when i on college i like a lot of boy band..
not really.. it's happen since i'm younger..
but i like korean boy band clearly was when i on college.
and.. there's a cute actor that got in my eyes..
Choi Siwon..

18 vs 29..
when i was in grade 2nd on college..
i was crazy over him..
every time i go to internet cafe i searched about him...
and i found he was one of Super Junior member..
......
time goes fly..
i busy with study.. graduated..dating someone that make me forget my craziness over idol.. haha..
you know..
that's can happened.. sometime..
heoll..
love is something deep.. have a lot of meaning..
can make you only look at him..
naman.. barrabwa...

but when i broke-up  with him..
i feel so.. so.. desperate...
hedeuch...
i don't know how much i loved him till make me feel so...empty at that time...
yeah... the memory kept me couldn't like any other guy instead of him..
haha..
pity me..
.....
the break even still inside me..
but i don't wanna go back with him..
coz instead of good memory..
i have a bad memory too.. about him..
hahaha

it's make me.. like...
i do..love him much...
but to get hurt again around him cz my love..
can hurt my pride..
so my pride win
and i burried my stupid loveydovey far far away..
and acted as how cool i was..
haha..
no one know how bleeding my heart..
till i made myself sink into K-Idol world to forget my feeling..
...
all the love that i have...
it's like substitute...
the subject and feeling is the same..
but i replace the object..
soound crazy ...
yeah...
i was crazy one...
...
when i wrote, told, repeat that i like someone .. idol...
that's how i got over my feeling from my ex...
....
so ppl find... how crazy i was as fangirlling...
....
and me to..
at the time i forget that feeling...
and make myself become a crazy hard fangirling...
.....
at one point...
i falling to Korean itself..
the country, language, culture, music etc..
not only like the idol...
....

on 2009..
the first time i wrote article about where the place that i want to go if i go to Korea.
.... so long... haha..
time after time i keep that dream.. that planned..
all of my friend who know's me..
they know that's i want go there..
but not the reason..
everyone just said..
i want go there by simple reason..
hmmm..
it's hard to say in a simple word..
just...
i fallen to this country in a kind of level that i can't explain in easy way..
...
so here i now..
march 2015...
make my decision to visit one of the biggest dream...
i'll go to Korea by this Fall..
October 20, 2015..
so happy..
so excited...
so much feel inside my heart..
wish myself luck about this plan..
and when i arrive there..
i wish a lot of good memory will happen...
yeah..
something that can cure this lonely stupid heartless lol...
can't wait enough for my next Journey...
Koreaaaa...
Oppaaaaa....
Wait for me...
even now i'm not as craziness like i was before to idol oppa...
i still like you... oppa.. ^^
eniwei..
i told one of my fren about my planning last week..
and she was.. so .. so...
haha..
she said..
finally you'll go there..
since i dream from so long time ago she liked so much happy for me..
lol..
i'm not yet tell the other..
hmm cz it's still so early..
maybe i tell them when i'll make visa..
yeahh...
and the other friend mesej me yesterday..
"I have feeling that you will go somewhere."
haha...














Note
hmmm, banyak yg akan berkata
"Apa sich yang bagus dari Korea?"
"Kenapa kamu begitu menyukai korea, para boyband itu?"
mungkin jawabannya akan terdengar kekanakan..
but...
Korea dan para boyband nya lah yg menemani malam2 patah hati gw...
and i'm gone addicted to...
semacam obat..
ketika seseorang terserang sakit.. maka ia akan mencari obat..
at the time when i've got hurt,... there's Kpop music can cured me
mungkin untuk beberapa org akan berbeda..
ada yg obat nya adalah cinta lain..
the problem in me is...
back at the time when i've got hurt i met suck namja...
the one who want get along with me but i knew he has a girlfriend and make me sick..
what's happen on you.. Man..
so i made decision to cure my bleeding heart to being Fangirling...

HeartBreak Event

have you ever experience about heartbreak...
i think everyone have this kind of experience...
but every ppl have different way to solve this...

some will cry all night long..
some will going crazy...
some will speak bulshit about how they hate the ex..
some will going crawling..
and made she or himself beg to ex together...
or.. some.. will fine... maybe cz they are the one who cut the tie...

me..
when i fisrt experience this..
feel like there's a hole in my life..
i though my days gone winter 365 days more without him
the pitch black sky feel so cold like it will shatter


the night air is breezing through my finger cold

goodbye are always unbearably cold

When it’s time for the flowers to bloom
i keep asking and looking for..
after the last goodbye
still hard to find another heart

My Favorite Day Of The Week

There's seven day in a week...
From Sunday to Saturday....
everyone has their own fav day.. hasn't they?
during seven day.. people busy with working, studying, do daily activity and so on..


a lot of people like Sunday...
cz the day is off working and studying..

people can do another activity which they can't do on weekday..
then Monday is a day which lot of people not like it..
it supposed to be like that..
why..


yeah cz this day wake people up from heavenly sunday ^_^..
Isn't it true?
There is I Love Sunday.. and I Hate Monday...
but at this day..
there is new tribute for I Like Monday..
yeah.. good one...
there is people love Friday..
cz the day off work .. Saturday-Sunday is free..


How about me?...
anyway..
my fav Days is... Wednesday, Thursday and Friday...

for wednesday.. cz it's like alarm which tell "Okay, monday and tuesday is passed..now the rest is Joy."
haha..
i'm not hate monday..
but somehow it's just to hard to handle my lazyness to start work instead i need and love to earn money kekeke.



Thursday... well.. my Fav KDrama always coming at this morning...haha looks simple
but i'm happy anywaysssss..
Friday... it's the top of Joy on the week..
short time to work... so i can go around and chilling out with my fren...
do a lot of thhing such as watching movie, reading books, cooking, cleaning my room, salon day ^^
for Saturday and Sunday, i don't say i don't like it..
but when it's happening all this time i realize how short the 24 hours in the day..
it's the same, cz my work day from Monday to Saturday,



so Sunday just like...
hanging and chilling...
i always think like.. okey today is Sunday what else i can do today...
so there is a lot of plan come up..
then when i wake up..
ugh this Monday again without i can rest of my brain for time by...
yeah.. there is always busy sunday for me... hahaha..

but.. everyday just like that..
always the same..
So......

Asking This Heart

i didn't know it is love or just...
still can't figure out this feeling...
but why this heartaching instead
little...
but it's hurt sometime...

i let you go like a fool..
and now when i see you with someone else..
i feel sorry to myself...

can i have that kind of happiness
if the girl is me beside you...

i couldn't say it even once...
why i've being like this..

i can't stop thinking of you now..
why.. why..
i let you go like that...

you can't hear this..
so you don't know..

just like in the past time..
i'm the one who couldn't made a call
even if i want...
but waited for you call me first..
it somehow make me sadness..

is it i miss you, finally..

or just because the rainy days..
so i get gloomy...